Sunday, September 15, 2019

القرار يعني مسئولية




كمية ‫‏البنات‬ اللى قلبها وعقلها فاضى من جوا تقهر القلب ..
حلقة فى ودنك: تاج المرأة الحقيقى ‫‏عقلك وقلبك‬ .. مش جمالك وبس!

إياكى حد يقنعك بغير كده .. إياكى تخلى بنى أدمين يفكروا بدالك ..
إياكى تفرطى فى حقك إنك تتعلمى من غلطك وتكونى أحسن ..

أنتِ ‫‏حُرة‬ .. و ‫‏الحرية‬ معناها ‫‏القرار‬ .. والقرار مش معناه نستمر في الخطأ ..
القرار معناه ‫‏مسئولية‬ .. أمام الله قبل نفسك ..
خافى ‫‏الله‬ وبس .. الله فوق كل شئ وأي حد ..

اعرفي إن حقك تفرحى وحقك تزعلى ..
حقك تحسى بمشاعر وحقك تستخدمى عقلك ويكون عندك بصيرة ..
حقك تكونى جميلة بس حقك تكونى ‫‏ملكة‬ ويكون ‫‏الله وكيلك‬ ..

كونى أنتِ زي ما أنتِ وبس ..


Saturday, September 14, 2019

إعترافات ليلية


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بقيت حاسة إني بكذا شخصية وكذا حالة في الساعة الواحدة .. تغيير متقطع ومالوش ملامح .. مالوش ماسكة ولا تفسير واضح ..

مابقتش عارفة أنا زعلانة ولا فرحانة .. كل اللي واثقة منه إني كارهة لسؤال "مالك" ..
ماعنديش إجابة وماليش خُلق للتفكير فيها ..

مش عايزة حد يسألني لأني غرقانة في الأسئلة وبسأل نفسي في اليوم الواحد كل ثانية تقريباً ..
ليه برّيح اللي حواليّا على حساب نفسي؟ .. ليه مابقتش أحس بطعم حاجة؟ .. ليه محدش عنده استعداد يقبلني زي ما أنا؟ وليه محدش حتى بيحاول يقرّب مني وشايفين إني كئيبة؟ .. ليه الناس بقت مؤذية بالسهولة دي و امتى هبطل اتفاجأ؟ .. هو مش اللي بيصبر بينول؟ طب أنا امتى هرتاح؟ ..

هي الدنيا مش هتبطل تعلّي عليّا؟! .. هو أنا لوحدي اللي كده؟!


Friday, February 8, 2019

لسه بحلم إنه مافرقناش


يعدي الوقت ومهما يعدي، لسه بحلم إنه مافرقناش .. 

إنه كان مسافر و رجع يشوف فراقه عمل فينا إيه و الدنيا وديتنا لفين ..

نفس الفكرة، بس بمشاهد مختلفة .. مرة في أوضة نومه ومرة في المصنع ومرة على السفرة ومرة بره في الطل ..

اللي مطمني إني بشوفه مبسوط .. كأنه حس أخيراً كنا بنحبه قد إيه .. الله يرحمك يابا ويحسن مثواك ويقوينا على موانع الخير ويصرف عنا شرور خلقه .. آمين

وحشتنا ♥️

Monday, January 21, 2019

I need to save myself




I need to stop giving too much, loving too much, forgetting myself too much… doing everything too much.

I need to stop pleasing everyone and forsaking my right to be treated equally.

I need to become bolder. I need to set boundaries and limitations for people who invade my life.

I need to do what makes ME happy, not everyone else.

I need to save myself. No one else will.


This piece is part of a challenge that will hopefully encourage me to get back to writing. Wish me luck. :)
#FreeWritingChallenge #DayTwo

Sunday, January 6, 2019

2019 First Thoughts: Life is Short


I’m always late for everything… I’m late for appointments, I’m late in responses, I’m late in life.

When friends used to meet on Thursdays, I was at home trying to convince my parents to join them. When people were way ahead with their careers, I was finally starting one.

While some of the people I know managed to be in control of their emotions, I still face times when I’m an emotional wreck… hanging on by a thread.

“Focus on the quality, not the quantity,” a college professor once advised me, when I shared my frustration of not completing my translation exam on time. From that moment forward, I learned to give everything time. I knew I’ll have to live with it. I admit it slightly solved my problem. But still, I struggle with the fact that things take time to cook; especially in a world where everything and everyone are running like crazy. I find myself dynamic and fast sometimes, though – as weird as it sounds.

I know I changed. I’m not the same person I was back then. I evolved… I don’t have the same needs, but I’m pretty much the same when it comes to sincerity. In fact, I yearn for tranquility more and more by the day.

I’m not into small talks anymore. Funny ones, yes – but not shallow or meaningless.

I’m getting better. I’m learning to love myself more. I can be messy sometimes, but I’ve learned to pull myself back up.

Life is short — that I perfectly know now.


This piece is part of a challenge that will hopefully encourage me to get back to writing. Wish me luck. :)

#FreeWritingChallenge

Friday, December 14, 2018

2019 Wishes & Resolutions


To be treated with respect.
To be recognized.
To be loved.
To live and breathe peacefully.
To give in return.


2019, please be kind. ♥️

#WishesAndResolutions

Tuesday, November 13, 2018

Let them know you care




Sometimes you need to hear it. That you’re doing fine and that everything is going to be okay. That you’re a good person, or that you made someone happy today. It feels good to be appreciated. You know you need this. We all do.

If you think someone is doing something good, please let them know they’re worthy of your attention. We all have stories to be tell, waiting for someone to sincerely listen. Let them know you care.

#SpreadGoodVibes ♥️

Tuesday, September 11, 2018

حِمل جبال




لسه مش مستوعبة إنك بين يدي رب العالمين ولا مستوعبة الحِمل اللي كنت شايله .. بس عرفت مين بيحبك بجد ومين كان مستني موتك .. يا رب تكون أنت كمان حاسس وعارف بكل حاجة دلوقتي .. هحكيلك يوم ما ربنا يجمعنا من جديد، ويا رب تسمعني المرة دي ..

Saturday, July 14, 2018

نهى الصغيرة .. كبرت




أبويا الله يرحمه كان فاكر إني ماعرفش حاجات كتير عنه .. كان دايماً شايفني نهى الصغيرة .. 


مكانش بيحب يسمع سني بقى كام أو يحس إني كبرت .. وكنت بتضايق ساعتها وأسأل نفسي ليه بيستصغرني مع إنه شافني وأنا بكبر قدامه و خلف بعدي أخواتي ..  

النهاردة بس فهمت ليه ..
فهمت إنه كان بيشوف شبابه وذكرياته الحلوة فيا .. كان نفسه أفضل صغيرة على طول وماكبرش عشان يفتكر مسيرة كفاحه و نجاحاته .. كان بيتفائل بأصغر الأشياء زي إنه يسمى منتج على اسمي أو يستنى اجري عليه و أبوسه أول ما يرجع من الشغل كل يوم ..

كنت فاكرة إنه أناني في حبه ليا .. طلعت أنا اللي أنانية!
أنا اللي ماقدّرتش لهفته و فرحته بوجودي في حياته ..

سامحني يابا إني ماقولتلكش إني بحبك وكنت بخاف عليك من نفسك .. ربنا يقدّرني وأنشر سيرتك الحلوة للناس كلها .. ربنا يغفر لي تقصيري وعدم تقديري لتعبك .. ربنا ينوّر قبرك ويرفع قدرك ..اللهم أمين

Thursday, February 8, 2018

You’re Unprofessional, They said.



Back in the days, someone once told me I’m unprofessional.

I took it hard, then, and I thought they were right; that it’s my bad. I should have tried harder, done a better job, went an extra mile to prove them wrong. Although, I already did all that, and more.

But later, life happened… I’ve been here and there. I’ve met new people, had more experiences, got my heart broken.. I simply grew up.

Ultimately, God proves you wrong. He shows you how you’ve belittled yourself, how you’ve forgotten it’s worth, that people can be wrong about you: you’ve done your all. He sends little packs of blessings; a prayer, a thank you note, a kind gesture from a trusted friend, etc., to push you forward and allow you to embrace life.

Trust these signs, and indulge them. Have faith that there’s a bigger world out there; larger than your mind, your prespectives, and beliefs.

Know that you always reap what you sow. It’s never too late. Good things will happen to you, only if you believe you deserve them and do your best.

These are not words of an NLP mimic.

I’ve lived, and breathed this. I’ve bled and had my share of sufferings and defeat. But as the band OneRepublic says, "I swear, I lived!"

#Self_Reminder #LessonLearned #CountingBlessings #PracticingGratitude

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Confessions Of A Writer


The funny thing is.. I do miss writing. Miss the thrill of it, Not the "writing for a living" attempts. Not the ugly, commercial side of it.
Not the stress that comes along.And yes, it's turning into one of my fears that I know I have to face sooner or later. I'll lose it for good if I don't do something about it soon, if I don't fight its urge of dragging me down to a loop of silence & blocks.

Writers live in constant battles with themselves and others to stay sane. Yes, it's beautifully damaging in a way. Yes, sometimes we lose ourselves in the process of creating something unique. The ugly truth is.. it's worth it every time! It's like drugs, but more indulging & engaging.

Will I write like before? That, I don't know.
What I know is, it'll stay part of who I am even if I forgot about it for a while, and I hope it stays special. It may come knocking on my doors someday.

Friday, January 6, 2017

2017 First Thoughts


I appreciate one’s support more than anything in this life. I cherish the moment they take out of their schedule to tell me everything is going to be alright.

I know I can be overwhelming or demanding, but I also know that I deserve to be cared for. I deserve a chance. I may lack the tolerance to accept what’s not done right sometimes, but I usually push myself to find a solution.

I’ve always been myself’s worst enemy, but in my heart I hope for a better tomorrow & work on that!
I’m just saying all this to deliver one message: I’m only human, and I hope one day I learn to be enough (for myself before anyone else).

I’m writing this as a #Self_Reminder. To read it one day & say, I made it.

Hopefully, I will in shaa Allah. :)


Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Your Mistakes Don’t Define You




You only grow and prosper, when you decide to take those mistakes & mold them to start living. You have to take what you learnt, apply what you experienced, then act upon it. Self-guilt will only stick you to the ground. Focusing on what’s best for you is hard, but it’s your only option.

#SelfReminder #LessonsLearned

#WhatLifeTaughtMe


Wednesday, September 14, 2016

‫صدقة جارية‬ لمماتى

‫#‏إعترافات_ليلية‬
طول عمرى نفسى فى ‫#‏صدقة_جارية‬ لمماتى ..
نفسى أعمل حاجة يفضل أثرها مستمر وممتد ليوم القيامة حتى بعد ما كل الناس تنسانى وآلاف السنين تعدى ..
إيه هى؟؟ مش عارفة .. بس عندى يقين إن ‫#‏رب_العالمين‬ هيوفقنى لها فى ميعادها .. لما استاهلها وأكون قدها 👆
رزقنى الله وإياكم الفردوس الأعلى ومجاورة النبى (صلى الله عليه وسلم) ..
‫#‏آمين‬