Showing posts from 2010

Give it a Thought

Image It's hard to utter any words anymore, specially what I feel inside .. Each day it becomes even harder for me to relate to the 'so called' normal people .. I find it very awkward .. In fact, I can't really feel comfortable around someone, unless he/she has a tragic issue going on .. It's pitiful, I know .. Yet, it's definitely undoable .. All my life I have reached for acceptance, for people to endure how I act, how I feel, how I speak, respond, interact .. But, I've never pretended to be something I'm not .. I've been proud of my painful experiences, my inner struggles, my overthinking, and my self-soothing manners .. Believe it or not, I really don't know where it comes from .. The energy igniting my heart .. But, I sincerely thank God for it everyday .. It's what kept me alive all these years .. It makes a brand new day bearable .. Without this fire, I would certainly die .. Which is how I feel 75% of the t


 I simply LOVE IT! .. All three together... The Book, The Movie, The Author! A story never felt so real or as realistic as this one .. I know a lot may find it a depressing issue, but if anyone didn't benefit from such a book, he/she is definitely a hypocrite! Then again, I don't want to be harsh .. Maybe, whoever doesn't relate to it, didn't have a real dilemma in his/her life, and we can only pray for that to be true .. The fact that Elizabeth Gilbert tackles the issue of our "Passion" in life, personally means a great deal to me, and I think to everyone whose really in need of a real change in his/her life. She simply answered our only constant question, "Why do we exist?" 1- We EAT : Recalling the sense of TASTE, we have to search for the QUALITY, not the QUANTITY. 2- We PRAY : Realizing that FAITH is what really revives us, and not " The Secret ." :D 3- We LOVE : Referring to the one and only feeling that manages to mainta

I'm a Dude!

Oh, Yeah! I walk like a dude, I talk like a dude, I act like a dude! I curse like a dude, I yell like a dude, I even drive like a dude! Suddenly, I wake up. I find myself in a girl's body. I check myself out like a dude, I dress like a dude, and I'm off to work like a dude. No make up is allowed, no tight clothes are allowed, no fancy colors are allowed. At the end of the day, I dream like a dude, my hair falls out like a dude, I even smell like a dude. Part of me longs for the dudette, prays for the dudette, wishes to dress like a dudette. Part of me has a hunger for being a dudette, barely acts like a dudette, has chills when uttering words like a dudette. Hardly anyone understands how much I need to stop being a dude, embrace being a dudette, and get to be treated like one. I love being a dude, don't get me wrong. But, I've had enough with the dude attitude. Let's give it up for the dudette in me for a while. Help me be me. Bring back the dude


It's blurry every where I go .. It's dark .. it's empty and it's shallow ..The disorder is eating me alive .. I keep fighting, wresliing, gaining nothing but bitterness and sadness .. There's no way out .. It's very hard this time .. Everything feels so numb, so out of life .. Crawling is the word, fatigure is the act, my mind is the place .. This upper box of mine needs some cracking, some banging, some breaking .. These thoughts of mine needs some elimination, enervation, starvation .. Lots of work to do, constant headaches and stomach aches .. Deeply falling, hardly rising and eternally confusing .. I don't have to make any sense, I know .. Just venting is my way to go .. Pain eats me, death awaits me .. with no one 'knowing how' to save me .. Sorry for myself is the word, constantly crying is the act, and my mental sanctuary is the place .. .. N.O.H.A ..

Finding Neverland

Laying in my bed with thoughts of shattered dreams and longing for the tenderness I've missed so much for too long, I deeply call for a prayer that would change my life for eternity. I keep asking myself this question every time I watch " Finding Neverland ." Does it really exist? Will it be possible for me to live a magical life of adventures and mystical delights? What do I have to do to bring back the skill of imagination I've lost? Peter Pan had to think of happy thoughts to make it through his childhood. He blocked away all the sorrows of lonliness and  poverty. He lived a much simpler life of good and evil. Everything was clear, daring, and exciting. He had friends, he helped others, and he managed to bring happiness to everyone who had ever heard of him. Isn't this what life is about? Aren't we supposed to be surrounded by people who care for us in every aspect of every day? Don't we enjoy the pleasure of giving and charity? It seems to me that

Lost & Found .. A Short Story

Once upon a time, in a far away Arabian land, there was a man called, Usama. He was widely known of his nobility and courage. His sword and his horse were his only best friends. Growing alone, he has been brought up by the local black smith, who taught him the arts of battle and showed him where dignity lies. Ever since Usama was a young boy, he had his eyes on Laila; she was the most beautiful princess anyone has ever seen. He knew he was not a man of wealth, nor he had the treasures for such royalty. However, he was determined to win her heart at any cost or under any circumstances, that life would ever bring him. One day, the village messengers have crossed the entire village with one rewinding announcement, "Behold the King's most precious proposal, fellow citizens. If a man wishes to marry Princess Laila, he must pass this test. Whoever finds the lost necklace of the Princess will be announced as her Husband-to-be in a grand wedding ceremony, held under their honors.” T

Stuck in Both Worlds

I miss my pen! .. I miss the old-feel of it ..When everything felt so genuine and so pure .. When I didn't care much about someone/something .. When all I had, was some boy-troubles and a mis-understanding with a friend .. When slam books/scrap books existed to open your heart to the world and teach you that your friends aren't all cute as they seem to be .. When all you dreamt of, is to grab the attention of your crush, hoping he/she would just notice you and maybe smiles at you for a bit .. When songs were really good .. When every feeling was intense and out of this world .. I feel like I'm trapped in 2 worlds; the teenagers' phase & the adults' phase .. Never lived this, nor that .. I have this constant one-on-one conversation with myself of, "Why I can't live my life like any normal creature" .. In other words, "Why haven't I, still?" .. Every once in a while, I wake up to find myself completely the same .. I haven't ch

Project Yourself: Mariam Quessny

Image Proj ect Yourself The story of Cairo’s Open Mic Nights with Mariam Quessny It takes a lot to revive a soul, especially when all it blazes is negative energy and frustration. That’s why we’re honored to have a concierge, like “Project Yourself” in our country because it helps us make use of our signs of disapproval, changing them to live in a better life. It’s not only a cultural place that people love to showcase their talents in, but mainly it’s about having a voice, having a chance to influence others, and really enjoying your time in the process. Mariam Quessny has initiated the wave of Open Mics, in an attempt to be a part of every performers/artists’ lives. And even if you’re not an artist, you’re most welcome to share what you have to say, interact with new people, and attend a night to remember. We’re presenting to you a very intellectual interview with an artist, who truly believes in Underground and how it can genuinel

Shady Ahmed

A lot of you must know Shady Ahmed as an artist, that’s for sure. But, have you had a chance to really get to know him as a person? We guess not. Having a chit-chat with Shady was an absolute pleasure. It’s, indeed, very hard to find an artist as decent as he is. He’s not only passionate about his music, but also he manages to surprise you every time he performs. What’s really special about him is that he believes in what he does; he’s been everywhere in this country, experiencing all sorts of life-changing occurrences. That’s why, he simply sings from his heart. He has his own way of expressing feelings, growing up with a definite dream of being an international artist. We hope you enjoy this gracious interview, as much as we did. To check out his tracks, go to . MM: When did you realize you have a talent? Shady: I was always into music; I found it very interesting. Back at school, those were my times of discovery; I used to listen to all types of music. B


Rashad, who’s known as Rash Radio, is one of those guys you wish you can always stumble upon. He’s funny, he’s talented, he’s well-educated… he’s simply all what you fancy in a real artist. His music is genuinely coming from the heart, so as his performance. Winning the Nokia Music Festival Pop Solo award in 2008, has shown the world what he’s really made of. You’re definitely missing out a lot if you haven’t heard him sing before. Embrace yourselves with an ‘Irish Coffee’ and tune in to one of the finest artists Egypt has ever known. To check out his tracks, go to . MM: Who is Rash Radio… in & out? Rashad: I can only speak to what I do. As to "whom" that is something that every single person is trying to figure out. Whether through a method of self-expression or by simply asking questions; it's an ever changing, never ending journey. MM: When did you realize that you’ve got it? Rashad: I don't think I really felt like "I Got I

Street Art… Or Is It?

Street Art… Or Is It? According to, Graffiti “is any type of public markings that may appear in the forms of simple written words to elaborate wall paintings.” Meanwhile, for some Egyptians, it’s nothing but some useless scraps that are found under bridges or forgotten alleys. But for Graffiti artists, it’s a non-existing art that they struggle day-by-day to showcase. It’s their own way of expressing what they have to say to the world. We’ve interviewed one of those artists in an attempt to understand, whether street art really exists in Egypt or not. MM: Tell us about yourself. Mahmoud: I’m Mahmoud Aly, known as ‘Mahmoud Graffiti’ among my friends. I’m 17 years old, living in Alexandria. I have a habit of doing some Graffiti work in several places, like night clubs, billiard or play station centers… etc. Also, I do some drawings for Egyptian rappers. MM: What does your work symbolize? Mahmoud: My work usually represents our freedom of speech, as well as my point

Bla .. Bla .. Bla

I'm trying to figure out what to say at the moment. My mind is still blank, but I'm fighting the urge of staying silent. I woke up too early today in an attempt of fixing my biological hour. It seems I'm starting to feel old; my body seems to function more at mornings nowadays. I've been a nighter my entire life, but I can't seem to continue the ritual for long. So, what should I write about today? Hmm, how about nothing at all? I don't have to make sense the entire time, you know. Sometimes, I feel like letting go... just spilling out whatever nonsense that occurs to my mind. I need to, that's for sure, to be able to write again. I need the flow back. Anyways, I keep asking myself everyday... What's next? Did I achieve it all? and What's "It" that needs to be accomplished in the first place? It's true, then. Your needs/goals keep changing from time to time, and that's incredibly weird. I guess I have to constantly beat this inne

It’s Ramadan time, it’s Change time

It’s Ramadan time, it’s Change time It’s in times like these, your heart yearns for what’s real, what’s profound. It’s when you feel you’re born again; you’re given a chance to live a life of harmony, a life of peace and tranquility. Yet, along the past years, we started to have mixed feelings. The holy month of Ramadan started losing its true essence. Some people think its spirituality is not here anymore. However, others maintain to preserve their annual rituals by focusing on what is beneficial. Ramadan isn’t a festival of TV shows and Entertaining Tents, it’s about purifying your soul and seeking a better life. As the Almighty ALLAH says, "Ramadan is the month during which the Quran was revealed, providing guidance for the people, clear teachings, and the statute book. Those of you who witness this month shall fast therein. Those who are ill or traveling may substitute the same number of other days. Allah wishes for you convenience, not hardship, that you may fulfill

Is it really a Hoax?

Yesterday, I was watching some TV and I came across a weather forecast. It's pretty important nowadays to check it due to the constant changeable temperature that we're all facing, especially here in Egypt. Anyways, I noticed something very strange; some may call it a glimpse of a conspiracy theory and some will assure it's totally normal. Now, everywhere in the world, there are floods, tornadoes, earthquakes, explosive volcanoes... etc. Mostly, people living in Europe, Asia, and Africa are the ones whose suffering really bad. While the only continent that's totally fine is the US. Russia's forests are burning for the love of God! How can this be? Pakistan is really really drowning and no one is making any songs or raising any money like the Haiti disaster. But, how the hell the US is the same? I guess I'll start considering the thought that Global Warming proclamations could be a HOAX! I don't know about you guys, I feel something weird is going on!!


I'm trapped inside my mind .. I keep thinking random thoughts all the time, yet I can't seem to come up with a specific idea to write about .. Most probably, no writer would admit this .. But, believe it or not, it does happen .. Yes, our minds become so blank that we start feeling helpless and restless .. I have a dilemma .. I don't know whether I should start reading to get it back or just leave it till it comes back on it's own .. It's just that I really can't .. Will you believe me if I told you how much it suffocates me? Maybe, I need to change places, go somewhere, do something .. but, the fact is... I did all that .. Laziness has really grown into my senses .. I convinced myself that I'm just stressed and that it will pass ... I really thought it would eventually come on its own .. I know I shouldn't freak out and I know I should try harder .. But, I also know that I'll freakin' lose my mind if I didn't come up with an idea soon .

To Write or Not To Write.. That is the Question!

Knock knock. Who's there? I'm your Blocked Mind. Now, why the hell are you knocking on me? Don't you realize you own one? I sadly do! I just don't want to admit it. But, why do you hate me so much? I wonder... You're such an evil spirit that conquers my brain! I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't act like a normal human being. Are these enough reasons for you? On the contrary! I'm nothing but a new challenge, a new opportunity for innovation, a spectacular way of bringing out the best in you. Are you kidding me? That's not how I feel at all! How do you feel then? I'm almost 24/7 depressed! I'm so hungry for new ideas that they have become my regular food. I live on creativity, I starve for an original goosebump! So, how is this supposed to be sad? Looks like you're not getting what I'm saying. Well, you don't have to be aggressive about it either. Enlighten me then, how am I supposed to feel? First, you have got to remin

Qualifications of a Happy Girl

Is it too late for her to feel safe? Is it that hard to be trapped in a world of a happy face? Why is it that hard for her to smile? Why can’t she be like any normal girl who walks the streets? She looks at her mirror and wonders. In her hands are bits of her hair, falling down like drops of rain, yet she can’t help but wonder, why do all those crazy things happen to her? She knows there’s a reason for everything, but she’s quite fed up. Not just totally yet, I suppose. What is she going to do, that’s the real question. It’s always the paradox of choice that quivers her. She can’t seem to find a firm answer to all her decisions. For ages, she’s been much assertive, but lately nothing falls into place. Again, she feels her head itching and itching. It must be her hair falling down. Whenever she’s stressed, she collects a pound of hair in her hands. What a beautiful hair she had once. Most of her friends used to envy her for having such a rich and long classy hair. It’s the type of h

Simply Mekky...

Simply Mekky… It takes a lot of courage to be different in our country, but it takes real men to actually shine! Although all of us watch his movies, only few who really know much about Ahmed Mekky. He is not just an actor; he is a scriptwriter, a director, a producer, and a rapper as well. Having such a charisma that forces its presence among people gives you a definite assurance that he is not just a regular guy. It was a privilege to have an amazing chit chat with Mekky. He introduced us to his visionary plans and dreams, so let’s see what he had in stores for us. MM: The first question we have got to ask you, Is ‘Ahmed Mekky’ your real name? A.M: Indeed, let me tell you about my origin as well. My father is a descendant of a 4,000 years old Bedouin tribe called, “Bani Helal.” Some of them went to Upper Egypt, while others, including my father, traveled to Algeria. They were famous of speaking classical Arabic and glorifying poetry. Then, we went to Emirates in the 80’

NeoByrd: The Habit-Breaker

NeoByrd: The Habit-Breaker In times like these, when industrial music conquers the world, artists like NeoByrd obviously shine amongst millions of singers and musical vagabonds. Starting off his first professional step in his musical career two years ago, Wael Alaa decided to show the world what he has got to offer. We had a chance to interview him, and that’s how it went. “In Egypt, people are familiar with all types of music, especially Rock. However, the Electronica genre is the one genre that has grabbed my full attention since my childhood,” Wael explains to Major magazine. He is the type of musician who draws the attention of not only people who enjoy music through an emotional perception, but also the intellectual ones who appreciate an artistic phenomenon when it declares its presence. Wael Alaa is a self-taught keyboardist and producer, who formed an Electronica project called “NeoByrd” in 2009. Influenced by artists, like Depeche Mode and Michael Jackson, he is determined

Evolution of Kersh

Evolution of Kersh Along the past decade, a new evolution has become an indefinite trend. A new rule has declared its presence and set our minds to a looping mode. Meanwhile, people tend to aimlessly walk around with no care in the world, accepting the fact that such occurrence has happened and it’s okay! But, let me break it down for you; ANY ‘Kersh’ of any size or shape is NOT – by any means – acceptable! Oh yes, it’s the ugly truth, and indeed it’s a scientific fact that most guys manage to have a cheesy belly. But, allow me to present my indefinite obligation when I tell you this; I can NOT endure such trend, nor I will ALLOW myself to sympathize with your situation. I’m not the kind of girl who encourages judgmental perspectives, but for this one I really don’t care what anyone would present as an excuse. I truly believe that it is turning into some kind of a sociological movement, more than just a bad eating habit. It’s like everyone agreed to accept it, in other words forc