Sunday, November 25, 2007

Gary Jules - Mad World

Love this song.. It's so true !!

"Mad World"

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell youI find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... mad world

Enlarging your world
Mad world

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Really impressive !

I got this poem from a group.. Don't know who wrote it yet..
It's worth reading.. very very touchy !!

عصفور و جوة قفص حديد مسجون
يحلم بباب مفتوح يطير يلف الكون
و لما جه اليوم و إنفتح الباب الملعون
خاف يطير قال خليني في المضمون

قالوا كل حاجة بتتوزن بالأعمال
قلت طب كانوا يوزنوا بالأحمال
دا أنا ساعتها كنت أبقى عال
شايل حمول و أنا في عمر العيال

عمري من بين إيديا عمال يعدي
و أنا بتحايل عليه و أقوله هدي
رد قالي كان بودي
كدة كدة لا بتجيب و لا بتودي

زي حتة تلج ساعات ببقى صلب
و ساعات زي شوية مية بتصب
نفسي يوم أحب و أتحب
و أبدل حتة التلج بنار في قلب

دنيا واسعة و فيها كلنا مساجين
من الشبابيك نبص على غيرنا و نقول مساكين
شايفين سجن غيرنا و سجننا مش شايفين
بنقضي مدة حكمنا و فاكرين نفسنا عايشين

شفت حلم في آخر الطريق بعيد
جريت عليه فرحان سعيد
زي طفل في ليلة عيد
وصلت لقيته مش ليا كان في إيد

كنت فاكر نفسي عايش حالة حب
و قلت خلاص داب الحجر و بقالي قلب
بس يظهر ده رابع المستحيل الصعب
متأصلة القسوة فيا و غاوي حرب

ساعات يحلالي منك يا نفسي أطير
و يعجز قلمي و ورقي عن التعبير
و يجن عقلي و يبطل تفكير
أفرحلي مرة بس يا نفسي مافيناش نغير

نفسي أفرح بس ياريت مش عارف
حواليا ميت حاجة بتفّرح بس خايف
الظاهر نسيت الضحكة طريق الشفايف
مش باقي غير نضارة سودة منها مش شايف

عايز أفرح و حاطط إيدي على قلبي
عايز حتى عن نفسي فرحتي أخبي
لما بفرح يقتلني خوفي من بكرة و رعبي
مابقتش أصدق أي فرحة من كتر غلبي

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

I Love ...

A friend of mine requested a new theme that I should add to my writings. He thinks I’m making myself old, and mentioned that I should talk about HOPE for a change. So, I’ve been searching for something that I can relate it to, and found it really hard :)

I’m not saying that I’m all pessimistic. Maybe I’m just not trying to buckle up a list of wishes that can’t happen. You see, I get so attached to something or anything I love, whether a person or even a song. Maybe that’s why most of the time I’ve managed to control my wishes; couldn't just wish too much for something because it’s 90% of the time hard to exist….

However, I’ll give it a shot :) I agree it sometimes gives you a splendid feeling to list what you like in life. However, it’s not quite nice when you start feeling sorry for yourself..

I’m not a demanding person, but I expect and appreciate simple things in life, like honesty, love, care, consideration, etc.
And I love the moonlight.. I really do.. I find it magically relaxing..
I love babies… they light up ppl’s lives..
I love music… they touch my soul..
I love comforting.. it helps us to survive..
I love my religion.. it revives me and fix my thoughts..
I love my family.. they give me sense of belonging..
I love my friends.. they make me feel I’m still alive..
I love my room.. it’s the only cozy place I can be on my own..
I love eyes.. it’s the only way that shows how happy you are..
I love hands.. they can show how tender you are..
I love hugs.. it’s all about passion..
I love flowers.. they make my day..
I love colorful outfits.. but black always feels elegant..
I love teenagers.. they remind me of experiencing everything for the first time..
I love exploring personalities.. I find it amazingly colorful..
That’s enough for now I guess :D
Stay tuned guys ;)

.. N.O.H.A ..

Saturday, November 3, 2007

A Song Called "Yesterday"

..:: A Song Called "Yesterday" ::..

Each time I listen to that song "Yesterday"
I feel so gloomy and I begin to curse the day
The day that I met you in
And felt all this love I have within…

Each time I wake up in the morning
I feel so gloomy and I begin mourning
Mourning about you not being by side
And remembering how it then felt so right…

Each time I try to sleep
I do nothing but weep
Weep not only by tears, but also by thoughts
That only comes when holding to some hopes…

But in the end
I have nothing in my hands
Other than forgetting all I had once
And hoping that I could give my heart just one more chance…

.. N.O.H.A ..

What's with "I'm better off alone!"

..:: What's with "I'm better off alone!" ::..

What's with "I'm better off alone!"
It keeps poping up in my mind every single glance
Is it depression or just knowing a new fact of life??
Will it go away or keep on poping till i drop dead??

It's really annoying me to a great extent
to the point of kicking my head till it flies away..

I really wish to scream it out loud to only get rid of it once and for all..
but the problem is.. it always keep coming back..
never goes away for just one glance..

I guess i should learn to live with it in the end..
cuz it seems it will be my only true friend..

Hey sentence don't you dare go away don't leave me after all this..
like all the others did..

[6:38 a.m]

.. N.O.H.A ..


..:: WONDERING ::..
The stars are bouncing for love
The moon is always bright and shiny
How I wish I could live among them
to try for once the feeling of glory

Did u ever wonder how does the water
clean everything from its powder?!
Why does everything love to glow
when the night comes and the wind blow?!

I never knew why do I love the moonlight
Is it just me or everyone love seeing things bright?!

Strange how I feel so gloomy
but yet I long for some tenderness
It is really hard to find something groovy
That's why dreaming never to me ends

I should never ever stop hoping
That a day will come when everything becomes so sweet and full of graciousness…

Sun 6/11/2005
6:40 a.m

..N.O.H.A ..

The Sound Of Bitterness

Assalam Alikom..

I may sound a bit harsh and rude.. Hope u’ll indulge wut I have to say…

I’m Feeling numb and neglected.. Maybe a bit depressed, but that’s how i feel right now.. I’m not trying to fake it either..
I have a strange feeling of letting go of everything … Setting things to the wildness of life I guess…
I dun feel like loving nor caring about anyone anymore.. I just feel I’m not capable of loving either..
My sensitivity holds me within its claws and lets me fade away bit by bit..
Sometimes I manage to pretend and tell everyone I’m alright, but most of the time i can't fake it.. It's just too much to handle.. Everyday goes by I score a big fat zero…
Feeling trapped and prisoned forever.. I’m so damn afraid of everything…
Wanna scream out loud and sleep forever…
My loneliness kills me and I keep begging for ppl to hang out with me like a desperate helpless creature…

No one will ever understand how I live nor with whom....
No one will ever be able to understand how I feel cuz simply they’re never where I stand..
How I hate it when someone start lecturing me about how to live my life and do this and do that!! .. “HELLO!! UR NOT MEEEE!!”
I have so much anger and bitterness inside me although I keep working on purifying my heart, but I can’t help it.. Sorry if I’m not good enough.. Sorry if I’m not doing things ur way.. Sorry but I just wanna end all this…
Why can’t they just figure it out???!! I only need their support and encouragement.. I need real friendship.. I dun need interfering …. I need love ppl ... LOVE !!

.. N.O.H.A ..