Sunday, August 20, 2017

Confessions Of A Writer

The funny thing is.. I do miss writing. Miss the thrill of it, Not the "writing for a living" attempts. Not the ugly, commercial side of it.
Not the stress that comes along.And yes, it's turning into one of my fears that I know I have to face sooner or later. I'll lose it for good if I don't do something about it soon, if I don't fight its urge of dragging me down to a loop of silence & blocks.

Writers live in constant battles with themselves and others to stay sane. Yes, it's beautifully damaging in a way. Yes, sometimes we lose ourselves in the process of creating something unique. The ugly truth is.. it's worth it every time! It's like drugs, but more indulging & engaging.

Will I write like before? That, I don't know.
What I know is, it'll stay part of who I am even if I forgot about it for a while, and I hope it stays special. It may come knocking on my doors someday.

Friday, January 6, 2017

2017 First Thoughts

I appreciate one’s support more than anything in this life. I cherish the moment they take out of their schedule to tell me everything is going to be alright.

I know I can be overwhelming or demanding, but I also know that I deserve to be cared for. I deserve a chance. I may lack the tolerance to accept what’s not done right sometimes, but I usually push myself to find a solution.

I’ve always been myself’s worst enemy, but in my heart I hope for a better tomorrow & work on that!
I’m just saying all this to deliver one message: I’m only human, and I hope one day I learn to be enough (for myself before anyone else).

I’m writing this as a #Self_Reminder. To read it one day & say, I made it.

Hopefully, I will in shaa Allah. :)