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Midnight Reflections

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I wholeheartedly believe in people. I fall for the kind ones, and I give my all to anyone in crisis. Some see me foolish, and some believe I should change. I do try to change, but eventually I keep going back to who I am. I keep forgetting to put myself first. Each morning is a real roller coaster. I have to remind myself to focus on the deeds, not the support. Solitude is my ultimate getaway. I try to simplify things as much as I can. I end up overwhelmed, though. I’ve grown to enjoy the slow pace of things. I fight... I fight to survive the daily pressures, the struggles, the wicked encounters. I think I’m doing a good job, yet no one seems to notice. “You have to say it out loud,” I tell myself. “You have to ask for it. You have to state it. You have to claim it. Or else, shut up and accept it for what it is!” All I can wish for, at the moment, is to never give up on feeling better and living a better life. Life is harsh; hope I can find the laughs and the patience to pull me thr

I Love Eyes

I ๐Ÿงก eyes. They utter words you can not speak. They tell stories, they show years of age. They hold secrets to one’s soul. They have it all. #TheMoonIsMyHome

ุงู„ู‚ุฑุงุฑ ูŠุนู†ูŠ ู…ุณุฆูˆู„ูŠุฉ

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ูƒู…ูŠุฉ ‫‏ุงู„ุจู†ุงุช‬ ุงู„ู„ู‰ ู‚ู„ุจู‡ุง ูˆุนู‚ู„ู‡ุง ูุงุถู‰ ู…ู† ุฌูˆุง ุชู‚ู‡ุฑ ุงู„ู‚ู„ุจ .. ุญู„ู‚ุฉ ูู‰ ูˆุฏู†ูƒ: ุชุงุฌ ุงู„ู…ุฑุฃุฉ ุงู„ุญู‚ูŠู‚ู‰ ‫‏ุนู‚ู„ูƒ ูˆู‚ู„ุจูƒ‬ .. ู…ุด ุฌู…ุงู„ูƒ ูˆุจุณ! ุฅูŠุงูƒู‰ ุญุฏ ูŠู‚ู†ุนูƒ ุจุบูŠุฑ ูƒุฏู‡ .. ุฅูŠุงูƒู‰ ุชุฎู„ู‰ ุจู†ู‰ ุฃุฏู…ูŠู† ูŠููƒุฑูˆุง ุจุฏุงู„ูƒ .. ุฅูŠุงูƒู‰ ุชูุฑุทู‰ ูู‰ ุญู‚ูƒ ุฅู†ูƒ ุชุชุนู„ู…ู‰ ู…ู† ุบู„ุทูƒ ูˆุชูƒูˆู†ู‰ ุฃุญุณู† .. ุฃู†ุชِ ‫‏ุญُุฑุฉ‬ .. ูˆ ‫‏ุงู„ุญุฑูŠุฉ‬ ู…ุนู†ุงู‡ุง ‫‏ุงู„ู‚ุฑุงุฑ‬ .. ูˆุงู„ู‚ุฑุงุฑ ู…ุด ู…ุนู†ุงู‡ ู†ุณุชู…ุฑ ููŠ ุงู„ุฎุทุฃ .. ุงู„ู‚ุฑุงุฑ ู…ุนู†ุงู‡ ‫‏ู…ุณุฆูˆู„ูŠุฉ‬ .. ุฃู…ุงู… ุงู„ู„ู‡ ู‚ุจู„ ู†ูุณูƒ .. ุฎุงูู‰ ‫‏ุงู„ู„ู‡‬ ูˆุจุณ .. ุงู„ู„ู‡ ููˆู‚ ูƒู„ ุดุฆ ูˆุฃูŠ ุญุฏ .. ุงุนุฑููŠ ุฅู† ุญู‚ูƒ ุชูุฑุญู‰ ูˆุญู‚ูƒ ุชุฒุนู„ู‰ .. ุญู‚ูƒ ุชุญุณู‰ ุจู…ุดุงุนุฑ ูˆุญู‚ูƒ ุชุณุชุฎุฏู…ู‰ ุนู‚ู„ูƒ ูˆูŠูƒูˆู† ุนู†ุฏูƒ ุจุตูŠุฑุฉ .. ุญู‚ูƒ ุชูƒูˆู†ู‰ ุฌู…ูŠู„ุฉ ุจุณ ุญู‚ูƒ ุชูƒูˆู†ู‰ ‫‏ู…ู„ูƒุฉ‬ ูˆูŠูƒูˆู† ‫‏ุงู„ู„ู‡ ูˆูƒูŠู„ูƒ‬ .. ูƒูˆู†ู‰ ุฃู†ุชِ ุฒูŠ ู…ุง ุฃู†ุชِ ูˆุจุณ ..

ุฅุนุชุฑุงูุงุช ู„ูŠู„ูŠุฉ

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#ุฅุนุชุฑุงูุงุช_ู„ูŠู„ูŠุฉ ุจู‚ูŠุช ุญุงุณุฉ ุฅู†ูŠ ุจูƒุฐุง ุดุฎุตูŠุฉ ูˆูƒุฐุง ุญุงู„ุฉ ููŠ ุงู„ุณุงุนุฉ ุงู„ูˆุงุญุฏุฉ .. ุชุบูŠูŠุฑ ู…ุชู‚ุทุน ูˆู…ุงู„ูˆุด ู…ู„ุงู…ุญ .. ู…ุงู„ูˆุด ู…ุงุณูƒุฉ ูˆู„ุง ุชูุณูŠุฑ ูˆุงุถุญ .. ู…ุงุจู‚ุชุด ุนุงุฑูุฉ ุฃู†ุง ุฒุนู„ุงู†ุฉ ูˆู„ุง ูุฑุญุงู†ุฉ .. ูƒู„ ุงู„ู„ูŠ ูˆุงุซู‚ุฉ ู…ู†ู‡ ุฅู†ูŠ ูƒุงุฑู‡ุฉ ู„ุณุคุงู„ "ู…ุงู„ูƒ" .. ู…ุงุนู†ุฏูŠุด ุฅุฌุงุจุฉ ูˆู…ุงู„ูŠุด ุฎُู„ู‚ ู„ู„ุชููƒูŠุฑ ููŠู‡ุง .. ู…ุด ุนุงูŠุฒุฉ ุญุฏ ูŠุณุฃู„ู†ูŠ ู„ุฃู†ูŠ ุบุฑู‚ุงู†ุฉ ููŠ ุงู„ุฃุณุฆู„ุฉ ูˆุจุณุฃู„ ู†ูุณูŠ ููŠ ุงู„ูŠูˆู… ุงู„ูˆุงุญุฏ ูƒู„ ุซุงู†ูŠุฉ ุชู‚ุฑูŠุจุงً .. ู„ูŠู‡ ุจุฑّูŠุญ ุงู„ู„ูŠ ุญูˆุงู„ูŠّุง ุนู„ู‰ ุญุณุงุจ ู†ูุณูŠ؟ .. ู„ูŠู‡ ู…ุงุจู‚ุชุด ุฃุญุณ ุจุทุนู… ุญุงุฌุฉ؟ .. ู„ูŠู‡ ู…ุญุฏุด ุนู†ุฏู‡ ุงุณุชุนุฏุงุฏ ูŠู‚ุจู„ู†ูŠ ุฒูŠ ู…ุง ุฃู†ุง؟ ูˆู„ูŠู‡ ู…ุญุฏุด ุญุชู‰ ุจูŠุญุงูˆู„ ูŠู‚ุฑّุจ ู…ู†ูŠ ูˆุดุงูŠููŠู† ุฅู†ูŠ ูƒุฆูŠุจุฉ؟ .. ู„ูŠู‡ ุงู„ู†ุงุณ ุจู‚ุช ู…ุคุฐูŠุฉ ุจุงู„ุณู‡ูˆู„ุฉ ุฏูŠ ูˆ ุงู…ุชู‰ ู‡ุจุทู„ ุงุชูุงุฌุฃ؟ .. ู‡ูˆ ู…ุด ุงู„ู„ูŠ ุจูŠุตุจุฑ ุจูŠู†ูˆู„؟ ุทุจ ุฃู†ุง ุงู…ุชู‰ ู‡ุฑุชุงุญ؟ .. ู‡ูŠ ุงู„ุฏู†ูŠุง ู…ุด ู‡ุชุจุทู„ ุชุนู„ّูŠ ุนู„ูŠّุง؟! .. ู‡ูˆ ุฃู†ุง ู„ูˆุญุฏูŠ ุงู„ู„ูŠ ูƒุฏู‡؟!

ู„ุณู‡ ุจุญู„ู… ุฅู†ู‡ ู…ุงูุฑู‚ู†ุงุด

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ูŠุนุฏูŠ ุงู„ูˆู‚ุช ูˆู…ู‡ู…ุง ูŠุนุฏูŠ، ู„ุณู‡ ุจุญู„ู… ุฅู†ู‡ ู…ุงูุฑู‚ู†ุงุด ..  ุฅู†ู‡ ูƒุงู† ู…ุณุงูุฑ ูˆ ุฑุฌุน ูŠุดูˆู ูุฑุงู‚ู‡ ุนู…ู„ ููŠู†ุง ุฅูŠู‡ ูˆ ุงู„ุฏู†ูŠุง ูˆุฏูŠุชู†ุง ู„ููŠู† .. ู†ูุณ ุงู„ููƒุฑุฉ، ุจุณ ุจู…ุดุงู‡ุฏ ู…ุฎุชู„ูุฉ .. ู…ุฑุฉ ููŠ ุฃูˆุถุฉ ู†ูˆู…ู‡ ูˆู…ุฑุฉ ููŠ ุงู„ู…ุตู†ุน ูˆู…ุฑุฉ ุนู„ู‰ ุงู„ุณูุฑุฉ ูˆู…ุฑุฉ ุจุฑู‡ ููŠ ุงู„ุทู„ .. ุงู„ู„ูŠ ู…ุทู…ู†ูŠ ุฅู†ูŠ ุจุดูˆูู‡ ู…ุจุณูˆุท .. ูƒุฃู†ู‡ ุญุณ ุฃุฎูŠุฑุงً ูƒู†ุง ุจู†ุญุจู‡ ู‚ุฏ ุฅูŠู‡ .. ุงู„ู„ู‡ ูŠุฑุญู…ูƒ ูŠุงุจุง ูˆูŠุญุณู† ู…ุซูˆุงูƒ ูˆูŠู‚ูˆูŠู†ุง ุนู„ู‰ ู…ูˆุงู†ุน ุงู„ุฎูŠุฑ ูˆูŠุตุฑู ุนู†ุง ุดุฑูˆุฑ ุฎู„ู‚ู‡ .. ุขู…ูŠู† ูˆุญุดุชู†ุง ♥️ #ุฃู„ู_ุฑุญู…ุฉ_ูˆู†ูˆุฑ

I need to save myself

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I need to stop giving too much, loving too much, forgetting myself too much… doing everything too much. I need to stop pleasing everyone and forsaking my right to be treated equally. I need to become bolder. I need to set boundaries and limitations for people who invade my life. I need to do what makes ME happy, not everyone else. I need to save myself. No one else will. This piece is part of a challenge that will hopefully encourage me to get back to writing. Wish me luck. :) #FreeWritingChallenge #DayTwo

2019 First Thoughts: Life is Short

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I’m always late for everything… I’m late for appointments, I’m late in responses, I’m late in life. When friends used to meet on Thursdays, I was at home trying to convince my parents to join them. When people were way ahead with their careers, I was finally starting one. While some of the people I know managed to be in control of their emotions, I still face times when I’m an emotional wreck… hanging on by a thread. “Focus on the quality, not the quantity,” a college professor once advised me, when I shared my frustration of not completing my translation exam on time. From that moment forward, I learned to give everything time. I knew I’ll have to live with it. I admit it slightly solved my problem. But still, I struggle with the fact that things take time to cook; especially in a world where everything and everyone are running like crazy. I find myself dynamic and fast sometimes, though – as weird as it sounds. I know I changed. I’m not the same person I was back then. I