The Moon Is My Home | .. N.O.H.A ..

what a strange weather and what a strange timing .. as if the universe understands how i feel .. it's so windy and cold outside .. lots of dust in the wind too .. it's really restless although it's 2:00 am .. everyone is asleep .. silence at last .. i'm just trying to finish my work calmly after a very rough day i had yesterday and an awful night i'll live to remember .. Never felt that terrible .. Never felt that discusting .. Never wished dying like i wished last night .. My brains were about to pop out of my mind and scream out loud: "LEAVE ME ALONE!" .. I really don't mean to be gloomy people .. try to understand the daily pressure i'm in .. writing is the only thing that helps me stay alive .. i admit i'm not always that clumsy and bloomy .. but i really don't intend to .. sometimes i'm just being sentimental or even romantic .. but people tend to remember the sad things about me .. don't know why .. maybe cuz they think i can ...

I don't feel like writing about one theme today .. Just wanna spill out what i have in mind .. Thought of trying something new .. It's like writing bits and pieces of thoughts that fly away in my mind .. This is how my mind works .. Check it out :) What's up with the mood swings?? How can a person have a mood and in a spare of a second turn into someone else?? Everything is really weird around me .. One day you are surrounded with friends and the other day you feel like you are all alone .. I wanna feel someone's hug .. Wanna feel tenderly touched .. Why can't I just have what i need?? I'm going on 26 and I'm still treated like a 12 years old girl .. When will all this end?? Sometimes I really can't figure out what I'm thinking and why, but I just let myself go insane .. It really helps .. Wanna go wild .. Wanna feel something I never felt before .. Wanna relax and loosen things up .. I always dream of living by the sea .. People can be really judgme...

Always wondered about the sense of belonging .. Always dreamt of a better place than the one I'm living in .. Always felt like I don't fit in this world .. Ever wished for that special someone who will be my shelter for life ... I know I may be repeating myself .. I know I may sound boring .. I know I may be dreamy .. Lovingly, hope you accept me as I am ... .. N.O.H.A ..

Assalam Alikom everyone.. ana motfa2la khear :) awel yoom fel sana elnaharda .. motfa2la khear we 7asa en Rabena sub7ano wa ta3ala rayedli el khear.. begad rayedli el khear fe kol 7aga ... da e7sasy elnaharda :) da aktar wa2t ba7ebo fel yoom .. a3da fe 2otty we basma3 Om Kalthoum wel donia sheta we matara :D so relaxing begad ... a7la 7aga lama el wa7ed yeb2a hady keda.. we fekro kaman hady ... we 7ases en el donia begad lesa 7elwa ... feeha 7agat bet7ebaha.. hya sa3ba ah .. we malyana ta3ab ah .. bas fe akher el yoom, leek 2ooda we e7sas bel dafa :) .. ah momken nkoon a3deen lwa7dena we mafeesh 7ad gambena .. bas 3ady .. mesh moshkela .. madam benla2y nafsena fe 7agat tania kteer .. zay el ketaba maslan :) nefsy fe 7agat kteer.. we ba7lam be 7agat kteer .. nefsy a3mel 7agat kteera ba7ebaha.. we nefsy yeb2a leya 7ayah we kayan 7a2ee2i .. ba7lam be yoom teb2a el far7a mesh say3any ... we ba7lam be yoom a7es bel aman... nefsy awi a3eesh fe beat 3al ba7r .. we atfarag 3al moog tool 7ay...