Why Is My Life So Bad?
Do you ever wonder about that? Has this question haunted you for as long as you lived? Does it usually occur to you that your lifestyle is crappier than anyone you know?
If yes, then what did you really do about it?! Did you ever consider figuring out what's going on? I understand how cranky you must feel, and I know it's not anyone's duty to understand the way you do, nor try to picture it for you. But, why don't you give it a try?! I'm sure there is someone somewhere who cares to help.
How about we make a deal?! Let's review this together. I'll invite you to live my life for a day, and I'll try yours. What will you do if I asked to experience the timeline you've been living for years? How would you feel about that? Give it a thought, how will we live our different routines if we decided to swap lives? How will the day turn out to be for us? I bet we'll see it differently, maybe act upon it with a whole other dimension that we never thought of before. I could use the change myself.
Sorry! You had your chance, mate. You're already living a life and it's yours to keep, whether you like it or not. Make use of it. Adapt, deal, and interact with any occurrences that may or may not happen. For God's sake, do something! Oh yes, it's not easy. It's messy and hard. It's unbearable and weary at times, however it's here for you. It's hanging by the thread that you keep letting go of it everyday.
I know It may sound crazy to you, but your life IS a living thing. It needs nurturing, and it definitely needs you to stop acting like a cold-hearted selfish being, thinking only of yourself, and blaming everything on it. What if your life was a person that you actually met? Will it stand you? Will it endure the amount of pain and suffering you enjoy everyday? No wonder it keeps pulling you down anytime you decide to change.
Here's a reality check for you; you're not a kid anymore. Your life isn't a video game either. You don't get any extra lives in your "Call of Duty" or build a new "Ville" in town. Maybe, some energy boosters, though. That I can relate to, but not the full powered, super duper charged ones either. You'll need to shed a tear every now and then, you'll need to bleed, and you'll need to learn how to adapt that's for sure; just be honest with yourself, and confront it. People aren't the only ones who play games on you.
One more thing, would you please give yourself a break today?! Pamper yourself, it's not that hard. Indulge yourself, give it a chance and give in. Look yourself in the mirror and decide that you will feel happy about YOU today. Go buy yourself a present; believe me, you deserve it.
Your life misses you. It's the one thing that endures you and sticks to your side no matter what. It's the only proof of your existence. It's the gift that ALLAH, the All Mighty, grants you to be by his side for eternity. I know you're fed up living the way you do, and -I assure you- you must be missing your old self too.
Here's another reality check for you; You are loved. :)