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دماغي كده!

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بالله عليكم .. قبل ماتيجوا تتناقشوا معايا وتعلقوا على أي حاجة بحطها عندي .. ماحدش يفتكر إني بدافع عن اللي بيحرقوا ويبوظوا الممتلكات .. أنا بدافع عن اللي بيتظاهروا وبيعتصموا .. عندي قناعة إن المجلس الحقير ده هو السبب في كل اللي بيحصل وهو اللي ساب البلطجية وهو اللي عمل الخطة دي كلها من أولها لأخرها عشان تيجوا أنتم تخافوا وتقولوا هنعمل إيه من غيره؟؟! .. هو اللي مأكلنا هو! هو اللي شيلنا هو! .. هو اللي حامينا هو!!! وهو لا حاميكم ولا شاريكم ولا بيفكر فيكم أصلا .. وعامل عليكم تمثيلية كبير قوي وأخدتوا الطعم صح قوي!! تمام زي ما كان مبارك منايّمكم .. وأنا بقى لا طاهرة ولا شريفة ولا فوق البشر عشان فاهمة قذرته .. أنا واحدة عادية جدا ومش بأتعالى على حد! بس ماحلتيش غير دماغي اللي بفكر بيها وبرفض أي حد يستعماني ويستغفلني لأني مش ساذجة الحمدلله !!! فـبالله عليكم سيبوني في حالي لو مش مقتنعين باللي بقوله .. ودمتم! .. N.O.H.A ..

A Sealed Promise

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A promise has been made .. A fate has been written .. A precious seal has found its way to my heart .. He has succeeded .. Yes, he did .. He has managed to revive my soul .. He knew how to bring me back to life .. And that's what he does best .. People keep wondering why .. They wish they had the chills he gives me .. I'm not sad, though .. For who has tasted eternal love, wishes the same for all .. Mark this day forever .. It's written in our history .. It's the day we signed our own manifesto .. There's no turning back .. No, now is the time of the brave .. You dream, you'll conquer .. You let in fear, you'll fail .. My love, read these words and  repose .. Save yourself for the one who cherishes you the most .. Remember, don't ever forget .. Your heart is safe here with me .. The letters of your name are carved on mine .. Your soul will never be alone even if I'm not around .. .. N.O.H.A .. *Inspired by Christina

بالنسبة للناس اللي في التحرير

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للعلم .. مش كل اللي في التحرير عايزين البرادعي ولا عايزين يحرقوا أقسام ومنهم شباب الإخوان والسلفيين وشباب من ائتلاف شباب الثورة ومنهم ناس كتير قوي من الشعب .. طلعان عينهم وشايفين كرامتهم فوق كل شيء اعرف الناس بجد نازلة عشان إيه وبلاش تجمع ... حاول تبقى عادل وحيادي وعقلاني .. على فكرة أنا ضد المجلس وضد الباردعي .. أنا مع الإنتخابات وحكومة إنقاذ وطني ! حكومة إنقاذ وطني حاجة ومجلس رئاسي مدني حاجة تانية خالص خلوا بالكم! الإنتخابات هي الحل دلوقتي .. ماتخلوش اللي بيحصل في التحرير والعباسية يغمي عنيكم على أهم حدث عدّى علينا من ساعة الثورة . استعلم عن لجنتك الانتخابية و المرشحين http://www.elections2011.eg/ حملة التوعية بالإنتخابات http://www.youtube.com/user/Elections2011Eg?feature=watch .. N.O.H.A ..

أنا قلت نعم!

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تصوير عمر كمال أقر أنا المواطنة المصرية نهى عبد التواب إني واحدة من اللي قالت نعم .. أنا قلت نعم للثورة مش لبقاء العسكر .. أنا قلت نعم لتعديل 6 أو 7 بنود مش لإعلان دستوري .. أنا قلت نعم لاستقرار مش دوّامة لمدة سنتين .. أنا قلت نعم لتسليم السلطة لرئيس جمهورية مش لعسكري ببدلة مدني .. أنا قلت نعم عشان صفوت الشريف يتحاكم مش عشان يتسكت عليه وميطلعش عليه خبر واحد هو وأمثاله .. أنا قلت نعم للمادة التانية من الدستور مش لمجلس من غير إستفتاء شعبي .. أنا قلت نعم لإنتخابات مجلس شعب في سبتمبر 2011 وإنتخابات رئاسية في 2012 مش لشلل ربعي لحد نص 2013 .. أنا قلت نعم عشان الأمن يرجع مش عشان قانون الطوارئ يمتد .. أنا قلت نعم عشان صوتي يطلع للناس مش عشان يتقال عليه تطاول وعدم إحترام .. لأ وكمان إنى بلطجية .. أنا قلت نعم عشان الشرطة تحترمنا مش عشان يربّونا على ثورتنا .. أنا قلت نعم عشان أخد حقي مش عشان يتقاللي كفاية إعتصامات .. أنا قلت نعم عشان ألاقي تأمين صحي وأمان مش سرقة في كل حتة وتكاسل .. أنا قلت نعم عشان الفقراء والعشوائيات والفساد مش عشان رجوع  فلول حزب وطني وقصو

هو أنا بكلم نفسي هنا؟

هو أنا بكلم نفسي هنا؟  أُمّال ليه أنا حاسة بكده ؟؟ أنا ليه حاسة إن ماحدش سمعني؟؟ أنا ليه أيقنت إني مسجونة ؟؟  ليه دايما عندي إحساس بالوحدة مع إن عندي صحاب كتير ؟؟ وليه دايما حاسة إن حقي مش موجود مع إني بأكل وبشرب ومصروفي موجود ؟؟ وليه حاسة إنى بتضيع مع إن عجلة الإنتاج ماشية والإستقرار مالي البلد لحد الملل ؟؟ وليه دايما خايفة إن المجلس العسكري يحكمنا بدل مبارك مع إنه دايما بيوعدنا بغير كده ؟؟ وليه مجلس الشعب متعملش في سبتمبر مع إن الثورة قامت في يناير ؟؟ وليه لسة بيتقال على الشباب شوية عيال وبلطجية مع إن اللي سرقوا و قتلوا بيتحاكموا ؟؟ وليه عيال زي أحمد سبايدر وكريم حسن لما يطلعوا يقولوا على الملأ إنهم بيضربوا في ناس مابيتشدوش وألتراس أهلاوي يتعمل عليهم كمين عشان يحرمهوا ينطقوا تاني ؟؟ وليه 6 ابريل يتقال عليهم خونة واللي خان البلد 30 سنة قاعد في مستشفى 100 نجوم ؟؟ وليه أول ناس إتحسن وضعهم في البلد هم الظباط وأهل الدويقة قعدوا بالشهور في الشارع من غير ما حد يعبرهم وفي الآخر اتفضوا بالقوة ؟؟؟ هو ليه دايما الشعب في ناحية واللي حاكم البلد من غير ما يخ

Waiting is Gold

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What exactly are we waiting for? Is it Salvation? Is it Peace? Is it Harmony? Is it Love? Is it Marriage? Is it Kids? Is it Money? Is is Happiness? Is it paradise? .. A lot of times I don't know the answers to these questions, on the other hand I'm okay with it .. I tend to feel fine with the kind of life I'm living .. I tend to have peace with myself, even if people think otherwise .. I understand how they must feel .. They're just afraid of the things they know nothing about, specially when they actually care .. I agree I may seem confusing .. Surprisingly, they can't live my life, so they start urging me to change and live my life by their own rules .. However, I'm okay .. I'm Waiting ... :) Waiting isn't always a dreadful thing to feel .. Waiting isn't always demeaning or forsaken .. Waiting sometimes can be your only solution .. It may become your only road-to-cross for a better future .. Waiting, if it comes along with

Love Sick

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She tends to drown in your eyes just by hearing your voice .. She loves hearing your heart beeping for her and only her .. She misses you everywhere she goes .. She sees you in every little thing she does .. Forgive her if she's love sick .. Forgive her if she may seem demanding .. Forgive her if she's too sensitive to handle .. She loves you and pleads for your kindness .. Everyday is a brand new day for her, only if she hears your voice .. Each morning she wakes up with a smile just because you're by her side .. And when the night comes, your arms is all she's got .. Try a little tenderness ...  .. N.O.H.A .. *Inspired by Adele's Lovesong :)

Book Review: Shaymaa El-Gammal's "Ta2 Marbouta"

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http://www.facebook.com/Shaymaa.Gammal Cute! That's the first thing that came to my mind when I grabbed Shaymaa El Gammal's "Ta2 Marbouta." Its design gave me an impression that the book is certainly a fun, different ride; small and colorful, yet very enjoyable to read. It's very rare that I find Arabic books with appealing illustrations that goes along the readings as well. So, here's what I thought about the book after reading it cover to cover. Shaymaa managed to gather some of her personal life experiences, day-dreaming revelations, along with few interesting resolutions; reciting bits and pieces of what she believes in. It is quite shown that she gave her all and poured what she had in her heart to be able to write the chapters of this book. This book is her first experience in the world of publishing, however she's been writing for years now as a journalist in several magazines. Every girl will definitely relate to a chapter or two. The boo

The Fog is Finally Lifting

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Is the block finally coming to an end? I hope so .. I'm starting to feel some of the thoughts growing in my brain again .. They're like seeds sent from heaven .. Don't know where they come from .. My only solution is to stay calm .. Whenever I start recalling the past events, I panic; my brain takes a hold on me, sometimes totally freezes! Could it be because of the incidents that happened in my life recently? I really don't know .. Hopefully, this free writing practice will help me release the evil thoughts I have .. It may liberate me once again from my dark side .. Every writer has one, that's for sure .. I usually advice myself to fight back, but for this block I totally went with the flow .. I know it's almost a year since I've written a decent article or post, however I managed to keep up as much as I could .. You see... for me it's always about the idea... The quality, not the quantity! I can't help but wait for the right moment of i

إديني ودنك يا مواطن

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ممكن معلش طلب صغير؟ كفاية كلام .. آه والله كفاية كلام .. التلفزيون مابيبطلش كلام .. الناس مابتبطلش كلام .. الراديو مابيبطلش كلام .. والأهل طبعا مابيتواصوش :) دول الناس اللي ماينفعش تقولهم بطلوا كلام .. مش عشان عيب مثلا لا سمح الله .. لأ عشان مفيش فايدة مش هيبطلوا أصلا :) المهم .. أنا قصدي كفاية لإيه طيب؟ كفاية هلس .. آه والله كفاية هلس .. بمعنى أصح كفاية تُفشر وإنت مش عارف .. كل من هبّ ودبّ دلوقتي يطلع على التلفزيون يقول أي كلام ملوش أي تلاتين لازمة يعملوا بيهم إشاعة يا إما يسنّوا سنة حسنة صراحة تلاقي كله قلّدهم وهلم جرّه .. لو عليَّا مثلا مش مشكلة .. بس المشكلة في أمي اللي بتصدق أي حاجة ماشية في الشارع .. طب أعمل معاها إيه طيب .. يا نهى ماتنزليش .. حاضر .. يا نهى متعمليش .. حاضر .. يا نهى بيقولوا السلفيين .. هيموتونا .. لأ يا ماما متصدّقيش .. طب والمسيحيين اللي قاعدين لنا عالواحدة .. يا ماما متخافيش مفيش حاجة .. يا بنتي أنا بخاف عليكي .. عارفة يا ماما ..  ويالهوي لما كانوا بيجيبوا المسلسل الزفت اللي اسمه مطلوب رجال .. يا خراشــــــــــــى .. بلاش أح

I Miss Him

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I miss him .. I miss the little beep in my heart that spreads like fire within me whenever I hear him calling my name .. I miss how he looks at me without uttering a single word, waiting for me to tell what he feels instead .. I miss the tingles, the yawns, the breathe I take whenever he's around .. But, what I miss the most is how he caresses me by his soothing voice all day long .. My soul longs for eternity by his side .. My voice aches to beg him to stay every time .. My heart knows what my mind wants, but can't seem to surrender to what we're living in, what we're walking up to, and what we're waiting for, every single day ... Patience is our only allegiance .. God is our only allay .. Pleading for mercy is the only way ... To be granted a glimpse of heaven if only for a while ... .. N.O.H.A ..

I'm Not a Little Girl Anymore!

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Here's a Reality Check for you, I turned 29 years today.. Oh, yes.. I'm not a little girl anymore :) I have a mind, body, and soul that can talk, walk, act, feel, cry, object, scream, and reject your insightful advice! I don't need some shitty job to define who I am, I don't need you to tell me I've done nothing with my life, and I won't let ANYONE choose any life decisions on my behalf.. I already have a personality.. I already know what I love and what I hate.. I already have goals that your mind can't process! I don't have to be you to succeed, I don't have to endure the nonsense I hear from you or anyone else about how my life is worthless and useless... I'm done taking my orders from you, I'm done waiting for you to understand, I'm done giving you a chance to redeem yourself.. I'm standing up for myself, I'm taking the most important decision in my life, I'm fighting your typical norm of living.. I won&#

Enough Formality

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I'm not an ordinary person & I never will be .. Yes, I get bored easily, deal with it .. But, disrespect?! This, I won't endure by any means!!! What goes around comes around in case you didn't already know that .. And, yes I may lose a lot of ppl thru my life & I may not have lots of close friends .. However, I gain others each day. Believe it or not, whoever stays, a.k.a stands by me, is as genuine as hell! This reminds me, I'm done writing formal essays & useless words .. Yeah, I'm bored as hell & you know you are too! Unless the piece grabs my attention, I'm placing it in the nearest trash! I'm writing what I want, when I want, how I want!!! Ugggghhhhhh!!!!! .. N.O.H.A ..

Pain is Power!

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Despite what other people may think, I believe that "Pain" is a crucial part of our lives.. It's our fuel.. It's what keeps us going and ignites our fire.. Unfortunately, people misuse it.. They tend to re-live it over and over again, when it's only meant to push you along the way.. I admit, I was trapped for many years in this type of looping phase; where I see all non-living things feeding on my brain.. I was standing still, couldn't manage to breathe or maybe think of a solution.. As if I'm trying to be dead, when I'm not :) I used to wonder how people actually live beside all this torments and delusions.. Depression was the only road for me.. Didn't know the true meaning of positivity.. I would be positive for a few days in a month, and the rest are full of total misery.. But, something truly happened... I got got fed up! I knew then I had the power to choose.. I knew that anger wasn't the solution to everything.. I knew th

Reality Check: I Don't Care!

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Holding on to your grudges.. What a splendid work of art! The situation goes as follows.. Someone decides to argue with you, then you choose not to go for it.. The conclusion is that you're not brave enough to respond.. (Or, that's how their mind works). Here's a wake up call for you :) Maybe they decided to do that ("retreat" in their case, or this is how you picture it) 'cause they actually cared about your feelings.. Maybe they chose not to be drawn to a loop of useless, inefficient arguments.. Maybe, just maybe they didn't want to live by your delusional standards.. Oh, yes.. For the sake of goodness and friendship... They ARE actually good people :) Believe it or not, you're not so perfect either.. You have to realize that it was your fault one way or the other.. Maybe you weren't so brave yourself when you decided to hold the grudge.. Maybe you weren't as strong as you think when you chose not to confront them (earlier)..

This "Something is Missing" phrase has to END!

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"Something is Missing!" How many times do you recite this phrase to yourself everyday? How many days do you wait for a miracle? To what extent are you willing to really wait for the one? Are you really satisfied with your life? Have you achieved what you've always dreamed of? Have you got the chance to actually get to know yourself? What was your childhood dream job? Do you practice what you preach for real? What's the one thing you're still holding on to? What makes you unique? What do you really want? Not what your parents want, nor your friends.. Just YOU! .................... ........................... Do I need to list more questions? Did I succeed to grab your attention?! Now please answer. For the love of God, do it! Don't stand still. Don't blame others. Just be true to yourself for once. Bring back the fire you're losing. Remind yourself of what you've always wanted. Ignite your lost flame. Believe it or not, using

A Colorful Message

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I very much love innovation, maybe cuz I'm Bipolar. Then again, who doesn't?! Although, most people nowadays see the back seat of everything, I still choose to see it in my own way. This country IS & WILL BE great! Not because we want to, but because ALLAH (swt) has decided to grant us, at last, the true path to salvation. I still have hope and I still see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's there, it's near, and it's, indeed, for all mankind, and not just for Egyptians. We have known the true meaning of Fajr Prayer, and that, my friends, is our first weapon. I hope this coming stage spreads not more but amazing ideas and free-spirited visions, which will help us all on our road to failure; consequently, our country's first, true life experience. .. N.O.H.A .. *Inspired by: "It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all -- in which case, you fail b

إرفع رأسك فوق .. إنت مصرى :)

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Credits goes to: B+ Bassem Youssef Show اليهود بيتغذوا على الكره والغيظ والخوف اللي في قلوبكم .. مابيهدلهمش بال ولا بيناموا بالليل كده وهم شايفين البلد دي بتكبر .. تصريح امريكا بإعفاء المليار جنية وانجلترا النهارده بالحكم علينا غرامة ما يتعداش بسهولة .. خدعوك فـقالوا هيبقوا راضيين عننا أو إن صورتنا تتحسن قدام العالم كله .. ولو حد إستسلم وصدق الهلس اللي بيحصل ده .. يبقى العيب فينا إحنا مش فيهم ... يا رب أرزقنا الهداية و أرنا الحق حق و أرزقنا إتباعه و أرنا الباطل باطل و أرزقنا اجتنابه .. ادعو بكده يا ريت :) وعشان تهدوا أعصابكم اتفرجوا على اللينك ده : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DTw8FR9s_qU&sns=fb و عشان تفهموا وجهة نظرى إقرأ الخبر ده: http://www.dostor.org/politics/middle-east/11/may/6/41412 .. N.O.H.A .. 

I - R E F U S E

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" I refuse to lose how you make me feel. I refuse to neglect the fact that it's real. I refuse to let go of something so rare to find, so hard to get. I refuse to surrender to negativity, to give in to my fears. But, I only agree on becoming more stronger, to grow older, to feel recognized... You're the only road I see ahead of me." ~ .. N.O.H.A ..

If You Like It, Then You Should Put a Ring on It ;)

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http://andrahilde.devianta rt.com/ Hmm… speaking of the devil, "COMMITMENT" is usually the sum of all fears; the scariest action a man has to do. But, a person has to be fair, as well, because there are some men who are craving for some love and dedication in their lives. Obviously, those aren't the ones whom we will be talking about here. Let's first review the meaning of Commitment, shall we? The What Usually, Commitment is to be able to fully give in to the person that you love and desire. It is to be devoted and willing to love unconditionally, while having the courtesy of being responsible and living up to it. But, let's face it; that's how WOMEN see it. Men, on the other hand, think of it as some sort of entrapment. Unfortunately, it has been widely spread nowadays among their species that it is the hardest decision they will have to take through their entire lives. Then again, they're the ones who own the keys to the whole ki

A C C E P T A N C E

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" A C C E P T A N C E   is the key to every solution or crisis on the face of the earth. If we learn how to listen, to really really listen , no one will ever suffer again. We should use our hearts more often. Think not with your minds for a while. Follow your instinct. Liberate your senses to reunite. May ALLAH sub7ano wa ta'ala grants us what our hearts deserve and feel. Amen ." ~ .. N.O.H.A ..

I Can Breathe :)

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I can breathe ... For the first time in my life, I act upon what I feel and need .. For the first time in my life, I dream, I choose, and I conquer! I dreamt of a better life, and now I'm living it.. I chose not to settle for the least, and now I'm having it.. I conquered the fears I've had all the past years, and now I'm enjoying it.. I've always known this day would come.. I'm always felt free, but trapped inside, not knowing where to go.. The fog is finally lifted.. I can breathe ... My soul has never felt so alive before.. To know how to live your life is really great; but to actually live it is something else.. No one can ever take this right away from you.. No one should even be close to that thought.. I can breathe ... For the first time, I actually forgive.. Genuinely, truly, deeply, sincerely, forgive.. Forgive anything that has shifted my mood or anyone who has invaded my territory.. And, from the bottom of my life, I thank them

Egyptian Reverie

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BEFORE 25.01.2011: "Do you cry over a country once known to be the greatest of them all? Do you spend your time whining about things you may have done? Are you chasing something and really do not know what it is? Are you living in a looping phase of frustration and resentment? Do you pray for some dignity, some appreciation? This is your wake up call. You have to realize, it’s all about you! It’s you who thinks… it’s you who prays… it’s you who feels, dreams… chooses to triumph over your daily battles. This is your chance to face your own demons, believe in role models, save everyone from their sins against themselves. It’s about articulating hope, carving the words of the future on your heart. So, break free from the imprisonment of life, hold your breath for a brand new day. Do something! Take a moment to live, love, and enjoy. Do what it takes to set your spirit free. Work on your relationships, help yourself become better. Say No to the things you hate.

J U S T I C E

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"People who curse others only blame themselves for losing what's most precious. They try so hard to convince themselves they're better than everyone. Sadly, they constantly forget; only those who genuinely have good hearts, don't actually believe they do, hoping they have done true deeds to be saved from darkness. Be carefu l whom you judge along your journey of life. ALLAH (swt) never sleeps, and indeed, grants J U S T I C E to all." ~ .. N.O.H.A ..

C H A N G E

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"When C H A N G E starts invading your life, your mind keeps fighting it, thinking you're living a better lifestyle. But, that's just your comfort zone speaking. How about you embrace it? C H A N G E revives your soul, takes you on a journey full of hope and second chances. I know it's scary, yet it's worth the risk." ~ .. N.O.H.A ..

Hypocritically Egyptian

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Is it just me or the world have suddenly taken interest in Egypt's political matters?! I just wonder, where were all these people before? When did being a rebel suddenly become so cool and fancy? What's even more strange to me is why are they protesting in Shubra in the first place? What exactly do they want? And, why the hell nobody does anything when Ghaza was bombed last week? Can't they realize that this was only a distraction to what's fatal? Are Egyptians becoming so blind and acting like middle kids that they can't see the greater picture? Why can't everyone admit that what happened in Alexandria was just a normal fight and the only difference that it was caught on tape? It's very simple; a church in front of a small mosque at new year's eve, adding to it a note of declaration on facebook to announce that some terror attacks have been planned for quite a time now. And, please don't forget to mention our combination of ignorant feelin